Reprogram your past. – AUDIO NSFW
Guys, let’s jump right into it. I am super excited to talk about this topic today and the reason is, is because I have more than three pages of notes. Guys, I’ve done a lot of thinking about this one and this is something that I would really—get your notepads out, guys. Let’s talk about it. Let’s talk about something really important, your past and getting over your past. All right?
Don’t let your past hold your future prisoner or another way of saying this is right now, some of you guys are allowing your future, your present to be prisoners of the past.
Why is it so bloody hard to let the past go? That’s what we’re gonna talk about, guys. And the reason I have to talk about this is obviously, it’s something that’s on my mind but obviously it’s something that came to me through a conversation I had with another individual. This individual has—and I’ve told him this, he is letting the present that he is in today and the future that he wants, he’s letting that be held prisoner by his past. He’s letting his past consuming him. He enjoys dwelling on the past. He allows the past hurts, the past pains, the past whatever it is to affect his decisions today.
Guys, this is irrational. This is craziness. I hope I’m catching you at a great point in life where this will make sense. If not, push, pause, don’t listen to this and come back to this when you have issues in your past, hurts in your past, miseries in your past that are holding your present and your future prisoner.
Why is it so fucking hard to let shit go? Let’s talk about it guys and let’s jump right in. There are three things that I wrote down here. There are three stages of humanity that create this situation where our present and future is held prisoner of our past. We can’t let go of our shit.
- It’s because we’ve been wronged or things hadn’t gone the way you’d like.
Something happened, a situation happened, guys, right? You were wronged in that situation. Things hadn’t gone the way that you like and maybe for some of you guys, it was a miserable, soul-crushing, soul-cutting experience you were so wronged. The deeper the wound, the harder it is to move past it. I get this and I understand this.
The subconscious is the enemy here. Let’s make it fundamentally clear. Let’s make it abundantly clear here, my friends. The subconscious is the enemy here. That’s what we’re fighting. Because the subconscious holds on to that hurt. You were wronged in the past. Legitimate, you were wronged or things hadn’t gone the way that you wanted them to regardless. Your subconscious holds on to that hurt and brings in the logical and rational mind into play.
This is how it works. Let’s just say you’re trying to make a decision for the future and then suddenly, boom, the past comes up from nowhere, hits you like a fucking truck, right? And you’re, like, “Wow. Where did this come from?” It’s your subconscious. That’s the enemy here, guys.
The subconscious comes up. It comes up, guys. It holds on to the hurt and it brings you with it. The subconscious brings it up and brings in the logical mind and now your logical mind is now in play. Now, your logical mind is thinking about that hurt. What happens now? The what-ifs, the only ifs, the should haves, the could haves, the would haves.
What the subconscious does is that brings in the logical mind to begin playing scenarios in your mind.
The what-ifs: “What if I had done it this way?”
The she should have or he could have. And what the subconscious does is it’s so vicious. Oh, it’s so cunning. When you’re trying to move forward in life guys, the subconscious grabs a hold of the hurt. It brings in your logical mind and once it has your logical mind thinking about scenarios—the what-ifs, the only ifs, that should have, the could haves, the what haves—then the subconscious adds more emotion and drama into the equation to get the heart going, to set the scene of those scenarios, and then you perfectly play those scenarios out in your mind over and over and over again.
It’s the subconscious that’s the enemy here. Your logical mind wants to move on. Your logical mind is here in the present trying to make great decisions, informed decisions for your future. A logical mind is here, it’s ready to go and then the subconscious, this nasty pernicious, self-conscious comes back and creeps up. It’s the enemy here, guys.
- The subconscious.
The reason why the subconscious brings shit up from your past, it holds your present and your future prisoner is because the subconscious needs to be right. It wants to be right, but you’ve been wronged. The subconscious wants to be right. It creates reasons in your mind why you were right, why you should have, why you could have, why he if, if only if he had and, if she had. It creates a scenario because it wants to be right. The subconscious is never safe when you’re in the wrong, when you’re uncomfortable, when you’ve been found out.
It is not a safe place for the subconscious to be. The subconscious wants to always be right because the subconscious needs to have some sort of balance. It needs to be able to survive the long term of this life with you and so the subconscious always wants to be right. It needs to be right. And the problem is is that you have been wronged and the subconscious is still fighting that. And when you’ve been wronged, you are exposed, you’re damaged, you’re broken, you are hurt, and the subconscious hates this.
And in order to feel whole, safe again, the subconscious must be right. You must be righted. So what do you have here in this equation? You have you in the logical mind, in the present right now trying to make a great decision, trying to move forward in your life. Or sometimes, and this happens to me, sometimes, it’s when you just chilling like a villain and you ain’t doing nothing, the subconscious grabs a hold of you, brings you down, it brings you into the lava. It brings you into the smoke in the mirrors. It brings you into the scenarios that you can play over and over again.
You have this subconscious screaming to be right, screaming to be righted because you were wronged and it needs to feel safe. It needs to feel secure. It needs to replay that shit over in your mind so that you finally agree with your subconscious that you were right. But the problem is is that you were wronged. So you’ll never be right in that past experience.
So you have your subconscious screaming to be right versus the rational brain that you have now that’s telling you to move the fuck on. Letting go of the past is so hard because it means letting go of your expectations of what should have been, or what should have had happened, or it should have gone this way, it should have gone frankly your way. That’s the reality. Letting go is so hard because it means letting go of the fact that you were wronged.
Letting go of the fact that things didn’t go the way you wanted. You didn’t win. You lost, sucker. You lost. You failed. You fucked up! You were there, you were part of the problem. Don’t remove responsibility here even if all it requires is just two people really. Actually all it requires is one person. You should always be taking personal responsibility because you were there.
Fuck the shoulda, woulda, coulda. Shoulda, woulda, coulda, what?! It didn’t happen the way you wanted it to happen.
- Your subconscious holds the future a prisoner of the past.
It’s not free. You’re not free. You’re trapped. You’re stuck. You’re held against your will by the subconscious. The future cannot grow. The future cannot be because the past is robbing the present and future. The past holds you. Hold on which means you can’t let go. Did you follow that, guys? Your future cannot be, your present cannot be. It wants to be, it wants to live, it wants to be here now with you, but you’re holding on which means if you’re holding on, you can’t let go.
So listen up. Write a note down. Here’s your answer. How about instead of letting go, we just let things be? It happened. You were wronged and you know why you were wronged? I’m gonna make it abundantly clear guys. You were wronged. Do you know why you were wronged? It’s because you told yourself that you were.
You told yourself that you were wronged. Then your conscious subconscious filled in the rest of the story as to why you were wronged. Hold up. Wait a minute, Peter. What are you telling me here? I’m telling you is that you were wronged only because you told yourself that you were wronged. That’s the story you told yourself. That’s the story you repeated over and over. That’s the story your subconscious has ingrained, hardened, calcified, and so it riles and reels against that story because it was never right. You told yourself the wrong story, bro. You told yourself the wrong story, sister.
One of the core tenants of mindfulness is to observe without judgment. This is one of the things that I am always striving to be better at and striving to educate my kids about. Because when you can observe without judgment, it means that you don’t have emotions in your decisions.
You and I both know we make our best decisions when we’re highly emotional, right? And so one of the core tenants of mindfulness is to observe without judgement, to observe a situation without emotion. Likewise, one of the best ways to leverage this tenant of mindfulness is to observe your past history, events, situations, objectively with no judgment. Look at it, it happened and then you told yourself a story.
Listen, guys. The past, your history, the events of your life, those only have meaning because you gave it meaning. Let me say that again. Your past history, the events, the situations of your past, those only have meaning if you give it meaning. If you give it no meaning then it will have no meaning. This too shall pass. It’s amazing. We need to look at these past situations differently. You know where I’m going now don’t you?
We need to reprogram ourselves of the past hurts, you know why? Because something happened in the past. It didn’t happen the way that we wanted it to and we told ourselves a story that we got hurt and that we deserved better and that was a bad story to tell ourselves.
We need to reprogram that shit because it’s holding the present and the future prisoner, like, you don’t need to do any of this. If you don’t have shit that you need to let go of, you don’t have past hurts you need to let go of but if you have past hurts, or past situations, or past life experiences where you were gravely and deeply wounded and that shit is holding your future hostage, you need to go through Peter’s reprogramming recipe. Guys, I just made that up.
You need to go through Peter’s 10-step reprogramming recipe and that’s what we’re gonna call it guys because it’s actually 10 steps. You guys ready? Here we go. You were wronged in the past, you told yourself a shitty story and that shitty story is robbing your future, okay? So now you need to go through Peters 10 step reprogramming recipe, okay?
- You need to set out at least 30 to an hour.
- You need to sit your ass down in a calm place and you need to sit there until you are calm.
- You need to think on that situation, that hurt, that thing that you need to let go of but you only begin thinking about it when your heart, and your mind, and your soul is calm from step two.
After you’ve kind of just gotten rid of that shit from the day and you’re in this calm place, it’s quiet, you might have some, you know, some white noise… I like to listen to violins and classical music when I do this shit. But it’s peaceful. When you are at peace, think on that situation, think on that thing that you need to let go of.
- Let those feelings rise.
All the emotions, all memories where there’s deep emotional context, deep emotional input that was there at the moment always have repercussions of feelings that rise in the body. For me, whenever I think of something stressful or it comes in my gut, right in my stomach for some reason, my hot spot, that’s where everything feels like it’s inflamed. And sometimes it gets cold there so let the feelings rise. Let the feelings rise. Let the emotions create those body sensations wherever they are. Sometimes I get it in my hand I don’t know why.
- Focus on where the sensation is. Where it burns, where it tingles, where it feels hot or cold, focus on that sensation. Lean in to that feeling.
- Ask sensation what’s it trying to tell you? What is it trying to tell you?
Keep asking. Don’t give up. Stay with it, lean into it; be open to whatever comes from your mind when you’re asking this burning sensation in your gut, or your side, or your heart, or your arm, or wherever that sensation is, start talking to. What it’s asking? What is it trying to tell you? What does it want from you?
- Go through the entire feeling experience and process.
Go through it. I’ve been through experiences where I begin to tear up, I begin to weep, I begin to think about how pissed off and angry I was, how upset I was. I lean into it. I get mad sometimes, I clench my fists. I’m hoping that you’re keeping your eyes closed so go through the entire–go through it, lean into it, we feel the emotions, get angry, get salty, get frustrated, enjoy it. This is your time to enjoy it.
- Come back slowly.
After you’ve somewhat come back to normal you’ve kind of gone through emotions, you went through the highs and lows, come back slowly. This is important, come back slowly. Don’t just immediately open your eyes, come back slowly. Focus on your breathing. In through your nose, out through your mouth. But come back slowly.
Don’t come back to reality too fast. Kind of bleed through it because sometimes when I’m coming back slowly before I’m opening my eyes, a small thing, a small nuance or small aesthetic of that story, of that experience of the past will remind me and I don’t wanna miss it, I don’t want to miss it. My third eye is talking to me, guys.
- Open your eyes. Grab your journal, write it down. Two questions you have to ask yourself in your journal, can I see the situation differently now? Is there something I see differently now? Is there a new perspective? What’s the new vantage point?
As I was going through that situation, that scenario in my mind, did I look at it from a different perspective? Did I see something I didn’t see before? Did it add in some nuance? Write it down. #2, can I see myself differently in this situation? Did I respond differently or did I respond exactly how it played out the original time with all its emotion and with all its regretful things that you’ve said and with all the hurt that kept on cutting deeper but you couldn’t stop and you couldn’t shut the fuck up?
Don’t we love our suffering? How many times have you been in an argument when you knew you should have shut the fuck up and ended it but you had get it in. You had to get it in, didn’t you? That’s why you’re so fucked up! That’s why I’m so fucked up, that’s why we’re all so fucked up because we take shit too far in the real and then we make up shitty stories about it in the unreal.
- Reprogramming. This is after the number nine and what you’ve written down, #1, can I see the situation differently? Was there something that I saw differently? #2, did I see myself differently? Was I able to see a different perspective?
What is the better story you can tell about what happened? What’s the better story? What’s the grander story now that you’ve lived a little bit, now that you’ve seen the outcome of that issue, the outcome of that problem, the outcome of that situation, the outcome of that personal event, write it down. The reason you need to write it down is because when you write shit down the story gets deeper in the body, in the soul, in the mind.
Write it down. What’s the better story you can tell yourself? You know, the better story that I always end up telling myself in some way or another, the better story every time is look at me now. Look how far I’ve come, look what I’ve been able to do now, look how I was able to pick my life up, look how I was able to recover, look how–look at all the blessings I have now, look at all the winds, look at all the games.
I would never be able to have any of this if it wasn’t for fill in the blank. That’s how I always end up reprogramming my past. I have been gravely, deeply wounded my friends and I’m sure you have too but I’m gonna tell you straight to your face. You might not be looking at me, I don’t care. I might not be looking at you, who knows what the hell the editing is gonna work in this one but I’m gonna tell you and I’m gonna look at the camera right now.
My past guys is fucking awesome, you know why? Because I’ve reprogrammed my entire past to be aligned with the future that I want today. I have been gravely hurt, deeply wounded. At some points, I felt gravely, deathly wounded. I felt–so at some points I would not be able to survive. But I have reprogrammed them, my friends.
I have reprogrammed my past because I will never let the past hurts hold my future prisoner. I will let go of the bullshit. I have to because the future is far more important than the past which happened but–you know what? It’s vapour, guys.
Some of you–and let me—here is the asterisks for the day, the asterisks is some of you may have to repeat this over and over again for some hurts, you’re gonna have to lean into it, you’re gonna have to have these sit-down sessions every week until you reprogram that shit, I get it. The past is the past, you can’t change that.
It is up to you to rewrite your story, period. It’s up to you to rewrite your story. Guys, whenever I look back in my past, my past is fucking amazing. Because I’m looking at what I have been able to overcome. Look what I have been able to do, look what I have been able to achieve. Fuck.
It’s up to you to tell a better story about your past. So tell me in the comments below or in your own journal, what’s a better story that you need to rewrite? What’s a past hurt that you need to let go of? Maybe, you just need to sit down and then listen to this.
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